You know... for a while I forgot I had this blog. For years now it's been a staple at certain points in my life but now - I've been away from it all.

Updates? I'm flying to Estonia for Christmas. Not too sure about it all, but it's happening so I'm just flying in to it. No reason to hesitate now.

Secondly, P is not worth my mental anguish. I know I have to start showing that I'm slightly (read very) unhappy about the way our friendship, or whatever you want to call it, has become a nothing. Hell, if he doesn't want to know how I'm doing, that's fine. Just don't pretend there is something where there is nothing.
The only reason I'm obsessing about this (yes, I admit it) is that... I'm still very single. At times, I just don't care, but right before Christmas it's slightly difficult considering everything. I just feel I'm getting old!
I need a man to be brutally honest about what's wrong with me soon... or I might just start to believe that I wasn't meant to meet someone again. I hope I have a very successful career. Something has to go well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The reason this has come around again is I just watched 'The Notebook'. Everlasting love. Wow. I know it happens outside of movies. Everything we can picture can happen; reality is just a reflection of our wildest imaginations. I believe.