Hello all

the last few weeks in chez moi were, as always, typical to moi: I was supposed to move in 2 days... but we managed to get the apartment for another month. And I had a job for 5 days and then quit it for another job. Saw W for the first time in aaaages. Spent time thinking about that certain someone. Something is extremely off when you can no longer differentiate between a satisfying friendship and the potential for more... and more upsetting when you realise how few people you are actually truly attracted to and that a friend is one of them. Grr moment - know what I mean?

Otherwise life has rolled along quite nicely - broke and happy, to put it in concise terms. Warmer weather has returned to London and I've seen two relatively good movies this past week: Sin City and Mr. and Mrs. Smith. Recommend both as nothing else of satisfying quality can be found easily at the moment.

Am still in the process of putting together my Summer Playlist... was about 10 minutes away from putting it on a cd and then pushed just ONE button and mixed up all the tracks. I know, I know... women and technology? no. Just me and bad luck.

Woah - bad luck. That's what I have! Wallet gone twice in London, never having money (I might have had a little to do with that) and no men. I realise it's pathetic to mention these things while there are starving children in Africa who I could be devoting my time to but I am a selfish person. I want a boyfriend. And there is someone out there who could possibly make me very happy and it's NOT HAPPENING. I'm too weak to raise money for children in Africa and I'm too weak to tell someone I like them and open up even the SLIMMEST chance of making even my world a better place. I guess I prize friendships over relationships at the moment. Should just get myself drunk and make a pass at him... while mentioning the starving children in Africa of course. I think it's a shame people waste their good opinions on my intellect - I have none, if we read my latest brilliant efforts at this blog. I'm an under-sexed 19 year old with a severe personality problem who wishes to make the 'Amazing and under 25' list while still maintaining general fabulousness in all other areas. Not quite happening, is it?

Let me think - anything else? Oh, the Tate Modern has re-vamped its Action/Nude/Society section - recommend it. It should be opening the final rooms soon. Also recommend the 'Colour after Klein' exhibit at the Barbican. V interesting, mixing many different views and media.

OH- NEVER EVER EVER underestimate British bureaucracy. I spent 3 hours trying to get through to the National Insurance number phoneline thingy - 8 different 0845 numbers and no one can bloody well answer the phone. I had to RESEND the email I sent them on Tuesday marking 're-statement' in the header to get a response.... finally saw a form. A FORM I say! Amazing, filled it out, sent it back and now no response. Maybe they sent me a random copy of something to get me to stop trying to call? Not that they would have picked up anyway.

Ok, it's late and I should sleep, as we can see from the ramble.

Kisses from this lovely sofa with a view of Canary Wharf.

Heili