my baby honeys,

it's Monday night and I'm getting ready for bed - my final day of work starts tomorrow morning at 7 am!!
I'm going to miss everybody, mostly Patti, Belinda and Rob. Patti and Belinda just crack me up- both are 40-50 and amazingly energetic. It's great working with them! Rob is my 19 year old future gay husband. (My mother is starting to worry about all my 'future husband' deals. If I'm single at 40 and Warren is s
till single, we will marry :S and at 80, Paul will be my man.) It's been lovely... I wish I didn't have to leave! Everyone was telling me today how much they'll miss me; I'm going to miss them too!!!

I've been doing shopping - bought the most fabulous Michael Kors skirt on sale and bought lot's of CK undies too. I love shopping in this country.

In less shallow conversation, tsunami's. I wish I was brave enough to blow off school and volunteer to go to help tsunami victims. So many people should not have died... but nothing could be done. I just hope that in their last thoughts, they thought not of fear but of love. It may sound cliche, but that's all that's important, really.

Though it might not fit in here, I've been thinking about my summer plans. I'll be accepted at work here but... there are so many things I want to do. I have to spend time in Tallinn and would like to work at JK again... and yet I need money and will be paying rent in London the whole while. The complications of spreading my life throughout three different countries!!!

Tried calling Peter today, didn't answer so hope I can talk to him before I leave. Would love to hear how he's doing. Have been thinking that I should have called Lydia. I haven't seen her in at least 5 years so I'm not quite sure what to expect. We were once best friends and I don't really want to lose that connection. Her family was my second family for two years!! I think I'll start with an email... if I can decide what I want to do. Keeping up old friendships also requires a lot of energy... and GUILT on my part. I always feel so bad if people expect me to suddenly revive what once was and I'm just not that keen. Yes, Christmas greetings are good. Daily emails? no.

I've just realised during this trip that I really miss my every day contact with people. Living in a world of 5 people is just not something that is good for me. I look forward to finding a job in London... it will keep me sane.

Love to all.

me