Hmm. I've never cried so much as I have this past week and it has left me emotionally exhausted. Last night I stayed with my mother at the apartment and after we had decided to go to sleep, I started crying and couldn't stop. I just... I knew how much I was going to miss her again. She heard me and we ended up just lying side by side in her bed, talking, me crying. I don't think either of us slept. At 5.15 she got up, showered and packed the rest of her things, I called a cab and took her to the airport in my pajamas, and then went home. I cried the whole way. It was hard to fall asleep. And then I went out. Aitäh Tuuli. I don't think I could have done it if you hadn't been there to give me a hug. Lot's of them.

This is hard and I feel weak. I wish I wasn't.. but I am. I'll be ok in a few days, I just want to thank my friends in advance and in retrospect for this past week and the one coming. I don't know what I'd do without you. Warren, Tuuli, Heather, Kärri. You're my saviours.