Oh wow.... friggin amazing. John Mayer, Glen Phillips, they've been accompanying me all day, all night, forever. John mayer - Your Body is a Wonderland. It's soft, sensual, sweet, adoring, beautiful.

Ok, enough swooning, but suddenly, I'm so happy. so so so happy, only requiring music. I've often commented on my moods' ability to swing from one extent to the other just based on the music I listen to, and it's soo true... It swings, like monkeys from the trees :)
If one were to call on me now, they'd find me singing along with a dumb smile on my face, dreamily staring out in to nothingness, because everything I need is in my head and vibrating in my ears. I think I've discovered something, or simply just accepted it. There are guys out there for me, somewhere. But hell, if I find them, that will be great... just why be bothered about it until I do? I've known forever and ever that I wasn't finding them here, and now I've accepted it. It sounds simple, but it was a long process for me, a time whe I had to grow and mature and realise that I really do make my own happiness. I can't wait to share it with all of you! I want to call some people and just talk for hours and hours... about me, about them. I want to talk to Peter, see how he's doing. And I think I'll call my mum... see how she's feeling today. I want people to hear the smile in my voice, and I really want to hear how they're doing. Maybe I'll call all my e-mail pals and thank them for surviving the years lol Maybe I'll walk to madrid? Oooor, fly to the moon? I simply have to be back by about 5, because promised I'd make dinner. I think this is because the sun was shining today and I'm going to watch a really good movie later on. Or maybe because I promised I'd bake... and I like making good things for people I love. Maybe it's because people love me too? I don't know. Just call me. Let me share a smile with you!

I have millions to go around today, take advantage of it!

Haven't felt like this since February!!! My god - I'm really in love with myself today :D

Kisses and hugs,
Heili