I hate the way I find these songs and then listen to them non-stop. And of course, this time, it HAD to be romantic. Picture- Kid Rock adn Shania Twain. Geeeees, it's so SWEET. Hmm... I'm suddenly realising EVERYTHING is due within the next 3 weeks at school. fuck fuck fuck. I haven't done anything, and now I have to design some kind of collection my tuesday to show this person what I can do, and i have to come up with pics of it. Umm...... not happening. But I did pull myself together and design a shirt, which I'm now in the process of making. I'll tell her I don't have any pics, but my friend "just happens" to be in town wearing one of my creations. pure geinus, ain't it? indeed. i know it is. But I'm really proud of this- in fact, I'd wear it myself. Hey... maybe I will.... it's gooorgeous. And I thought of it when a friend wanted me to make her a jacket I'd made for my previous collection, which just didn't suit her in ANY possible way, fit wise. So I grabbed a piece of cloth, put it around her and started pinning- voila. The perfect top for summer. And I designed it. I love design- i just wish i was original enough to make a career out of it. A good one. eh, maybe later, once I've earned my 2nd million. 2nd million WHAT i have no idea, probably pennies hehe. So anyway, work a bundle, and I just took time out of my oh so busy schedule of reading my new Homes and Gardens to tell you what I've been up to. I was out all weekend in the sun- i have quite a lovely colouring! red, various shades of it :P but it's better i do this, bc otherwise i'll be like a cooked lobster in Canada, as I was last year... and in pain for 3 days. Not my idea of a good start to work!


Anyway... speaking of summer. I'm a bit worried this year. Every year, I'm worried that I'll lose touch with everybody. That I'll be forgotten, and... miss out on something. I'm always afraid I'm missing out on something- I'm entirely satisfied with myself and my life, but there's a tiny bit of me that always questions my choices. Like... what if I had said, blow the US, i'll take a holiday in Spain, run through England for some summer shopping, and then spent the rest of the summer guiding british Rugby clubs through Estonia in search of places to fire AK47's. Yaay. But no, I made the choice to be a good daughter and see my mum. I can't wait... but 2 months away again. I've met so many new people in these past 6 or so months, both online and offline, who I wouldn't want to lose contact with. I can't believe I just said that... but it's true. There are quite a few people online that I've gotten to know quite well..... can't imagine coming home in august and finding they've moved to Zimbabwe or been arrested for drug smuggling. Or just forgotten me :P Eh... if my friends here can't forget me, how can they? :P I'm unforgettable- unique, wholesome, and kind of pillowy (ie soft, comforting and with changeable pillow covers) Hehe.. my lovely little analogies


How do I manage to jump from one topic to another with no notice at all? If it bothers anybody, just tell me... I should try to change my ways! It's the way my brain works. I eventually come back to my point, but only after much wandering... usually.


Anyway darlings, readers, and penguins, I must leave you... I'm going to do something useful. Or try to at least get away from the computer. You see, I avoided it for 2 days... and now I've been pulled back in- in the space of 3 short hours!


Aaaah, I forgot the most important feat of all this weekend!!! I cleaned my "apartment"!!!! It's goooorgeous. And I love it. Now I just have to finish the little things. Organising the shelves, putting the cabinets in order. I feel now what I thought I would feel for my first apartment- i love my 2 rooms. And the thought that I have put in to the details and the ornaments... and the memories in almost all my things. It's a beautiful feeling. I can't wait to hear the reactions of people when they walk in- it shows whether you've been successful or not in putting feeling in to your home. If people feel what I feel when they walk through my door- I've done everything I could. But i will always do more. Now I have to organise a housewarming- invite my first full-fledged guest!! (cuz tuuli doesn't count, she saw it messy!)


luv u all. Even if I don't know u. MUAH.